my world just left me only....

nobody care my anymore ... now when they all seeing and looking at me.. they just pretend that dont know me and keep walking over me... the whole school like a dark world now... and i feel just me in the school.. no others... or maybe is , just they all but no me in the school....

i'm really losting my mind and my way... i dont know where could i go...

i losting in the darkness....

2012 the world will be end?

4 years later... the world maybe will be end.... i read a science book last week... the book have a chapter say about an old old history 'stone board' that found in 'malaya' at somewhere... the 'stone board' has write down many many digital number.. the scientist get the 3,740 number after change the digital number.. and the scientist say that the 'solar cell/sun cell' (i dont know what the hell is that) will be change to opposite way every 3,740 years.. and last time the sun cell change the way until now, that is 2012 and about February... if the all animals and plants cant be suitable for that, the all animals and plants will be dead.. same as doomsday...

actually i not very believe in that... but if it is the real, i think i will done all my wish like... buy the areoplane toy, helicopter , play pool all the day... =.=" and the most important... i hope she will accept me even until the last minute...

so.. what will you do if that is the real?

its time to back....

now its the time to back already.... i stay out of my world already so long... and i keep give the others people trouble only.. i'm annoying... just make people hate me only... feel bad.....

welcome back, mok! :(

did i really suppose to give her up? =(

my heart is getting more hurt inside the heart.. did i really suppose to give her up? i really dont know... when i heard that the other say she have boyfriend already.. i feel very strange and sad... i dont know how to do.... if she really have the boy.. did i suppose to give her up and let her be with some one that she really love to be...... i really hope to give her the key.... =(

Silence – Jay Chow

I’m only left with a piano to accompany me all the day
Sleeping on a grand piano
Silently worning out
I think you’ve shown it’s perfectly clear
I understand and I know that you’ve willing to
You said that you will be sad
But I don’t believe it
Accompanying me & holding my hand like before
I hope that he really love you more than I do
So I will force myself to leave you

You want me to say it, it’s hard for me
I don’t even want us to separate
Why do I still replace my sadness with a smile
I really don’t have that talent
Being with you & then accept him
You don’t have to worry too much
I can manage on my own

You’ve gone so far away
And I will slowly walk away
Why do I still hold you when I should be leaving
I really don’t have that skill
To remain silent so soon
I will lean how to give you up
It’s because I still love you so much

sky soo.. dark...

today the sky suddenly very dark... because i'm singing!!!! XP

key of the locked box...

A key of my heart boxes.... i will keep it... i will give the key to my another part to unlock back my heart box when i found her.......

life just made simple! ;-/

many many thing happen in last year and this week..... that make me very confuising and i cant think anything very well.....

actually the life could be very simple and easy.... all just see how you're think about this.... hard and easy... i will choose hard everytime... many people say i'm crazy... whatever.. i didnt put in heart... well... this time.. i will choose easy... a new way will make my life a new style... that's what i'm thinking now....

you too?

result

at last... lock up already....... she didnt reject me anywayz... but i didnt ask her.... i'm not scare ... but i know the people who really can make she happy that not me.... maybe she are thinking like that.... but i really dont know what she are thinking about.... if she have saw my blog... i hope u, hui wen... will tell me what you are thinking about.......... i love you... i am a stupid guy... please forgive me for all of what i'm doing bad to you... there all are not true... but i love you ... that was the true...........

a present... she say she like it before... i buy the present already a week already.... but now still at my here.... i'm really useless.... actually i wanna to give her tonight... but .. lolzz....

and in tonight i get something.... that are... maybe the god not playing you... but there was many impossible thing in this world.... what you are thinking.. in the real world it have no idea to work at 100%....

my draw, my feel

i draw these at school... that all are my draw.... same as my feel............



a heart already been cold up................ a heart just like the sky..............



i starting to been dark... dark until i already dont know who i am...... what i am doing........ i starting lost myself......



a heart that be hurt many and many.... now.. it rather to lock itself up than keep searching the another part inside the world............. it really hurt..... it feel very sad every day and every time......... nobody will know it feels.... no one.... ='(

but now before i had lock up my heart... i wanna try again... the last chance................ tonight..... i will go to ask her...

if she accept me.. i will stay at here.... and let her to cure me .... ='j