a nice day..... =)

today is Rachel and Kok Tong birthday!!! haha... they all plan to go piramid there celebrate it....

actually they all just wanna go ice skatting only lar... -_-ll my skatting skill still very bad... in fact i dont wan to go skat de.... but they all at they, dont you wan me alone at outside meh.... =.="

then i try to go skatting lor.... but still okay lar.. -.-" i still need a master to help me.... cant to deny that Rachel she a professional skat girl.. haha... she like to help me.. and we hold together and skat... that was really romance... =.="" i feel very nice when holding his hand... you wont believe.. this was my first holding a girl hand.. =.=" unconsciously, i learn how to skat already... lol...

after i skat for 3 hours... then i feel tired and find pei mun them to watch a movie... the movie title is : code name , the cleaner ... the movie was a action movie but it very funny.. haha..

afterthat, we all go to the .. game place? lol.. a place that play game de... =.=" then we all play together.. in initial-D i still can win Issac.. haha.. not bad.. we all also injured after playing... cause too enjoy! XP

that was late already... then we back to home.... i was very tired..... =.=" today really enjoy for me.... hehe... =P

izzit she there are waiting for me?

somebody say there was many chance waiting you in your life.... it need you to strive for it... sometime she was online in msn.. it's just same like a chance... she now at there... and i dont know when she will leave... maybe she at there she are not waiting me but the others.... or maybe that was me oversensitive...

maybe alisa she are right... i should just say out my feel to her.... whatever is the result.. but atleast i think i will feel more better than now..... =( it maybe hard to believe... she are the only one i need......

actually... say the real, i'm feel really sad and hard..... i just keep pretending i'm alright... but i know i can keep pretend... until she tell me she are loving me.... probably the day that i waiting will be very long or just tomorrow.... but i can prop up until that day..... i hope....

:( can anyone tell me what should i do? T.T

i dont know what i should do for... i dont know she now are loving me or not... and somemore now i'm not gonna to hope for any love.... i become form 2 soon... form 2 are very hard and many thing need me to study for...

but when i gonna to give up and rest for the love.. she looks like still love me... it make me dont know what to do.... and.. i think love and study can do very well at the same time right?.... somemore.... if she really love me.. i really dont hope to miss this love... cause i'm still very love her............. T.T

maybe the god is very like to play me.... when i hope to study.. the love coming... when i wish for the love... it leave me already.... i'm tired now... i dont wan play anymore...... really....

maybe dreamz would be come thurth..

someone know my blog already... and maybe my christmas dreamz will be come thurth.... maybe only... but i hope so......

...christmas dreamz... maybe it just a dreamz.. in real world that wont be happen... somemore i feel that she more loving the others but not me... maybe a dreamz really cant happen anyways at the real world... :( but however i will keep the hope.... and wait for her.........

now, she know my blog ready... so... if she can come at the party... i will be very happy... =)

Tuition.... Dreamz.....

haiz... just left one more year... then i will leave my tuition... reason why? no reason.... i just wanna leave... say the thurth one... when i start go into the tuition and learn all the thing... it really work to help me in studies, life, many many..... but now i had learn all... and it was nothing more helping me... i need a more knowledge place to let me learn more about this world....

well, sometimes i really wish to leave now... cause sometime my friends they all are really annoying and they didnt study anyway in class... just make laugh and noise.... sometime that was nice for relaxing ... but sometime it's not and very annoying for all student.... somemore i saw teacher was very headache for it.... sometime i wish for peace in tuition.... =.="

i hope i have a nicely experience in tuition before i leave.... :)

christmas was coming... and this year i was celebrate christmas lonely... if really can, i hope i can celebrate with her.... i hope there was a party and i invite her go there ... and we can dance together or.. something else lor... hehe... but i know she must call her friends go with her together if she have go there....... dreamz not come true!! >.<

dreamz girl... i hope the dream can really come thurth ...

'dream come thurth' this word i always heard from people... but many of people also say its was not true and was opposite meaning of the dream... but i hope it was not true.....

the sweet sweet dreamz story is like that de...

when the dreamz start.. i was at the down tuition there... cause me and she, dreamz girl always wait our teacher to fetch we back at there... then she was coming to me.. and take me to away from the tuition classmate them... she didnt say anything but me start talking with her... i asking her did she have love me? cause the girl in the true world is a girl that i love her from standard 4... and we have be couple in this year before... but that 'couple' is no anyone know.. cause we dont wan to let anyone know it... but i know that she tell her good friendz ready... i also didnt say to my best friend... =.=" but we was break after that.... that was my problem! i very hate myself why i would break with her! she was nice and perfect!!!! that is i was thinking she just lie to me and she didnt love me before.. i was stupid for doing that and thinking that stupid thing!!!!! after that.. i know that i was wrong.. and i regret to do that... i didnt say to her... i dont know why... but now was too late to be... and .. i still loving her...

continue to the story... then she was nod her head... i was very happy and we was talk and talk many thing.... but what we talk i was forget ready.. but i remember that all was sweet.. i remember something was happen after that.. but i forgot !!! >.<"

then i was get up from that... maybe the story was end... i dont know why i was wake up... my phone alarm also cant get me up... but why i was wake up myself? but what was i know at that time that i was LATE!!!!! i promise to attend with my best friend go to sunway piramid play.... haiz... go there at 8am... cause need to help him sister open the shop.. he sister working at there... then we play and play the initial-D .. THAT WAS AMAZING!!! i up my lvl!! haha... i play at there for 12hours! lolz.. so tired...

back to home!! home sweet home~ tomorrow gonna go to NTV7 studio .. hehe.. my tuition annual trip/party!! wow.. haha.. i was a spectators of a show... the show name 'shout out! its show time!' every thursday 10.45pm... me was the spectators in show nomber 10 and 11 show out... tomorrow can see how was them film a show... haha... hope tonight can dreamz my dream girl too!! ^^"

friendz? now i dont know what means is it...

Some friends you know them more longger, you will feel more unknown for them.... Some friends told you that you and them are best friendz, but when have any problem them all with leave you... Friend.. what meanz is that word? is it a nice word? or a bad word? maybe that is a nice word for someone but not for me.... because i was really shouldnt have any friends....

The list of msn.. about my 'buddy list' have 79 people... but if i really wan to chat with someone.... i really. .really cant found out any...... actually what is friend? why i always make a scene with them? is it all my problem? or maybe i haven found out a really friend?

My friends... they wouldnt talk many more with me.... when i knew them more longer... they like very unknown for me.... i really dont know how to talk with them.......

holidays.....

'when chinese new year, people would like to say ' Happy Chinese New Year! '

when christmas, people would like to say ' Happy Christmas Day! '

when you birthday, people would like to say ' Happy Birthday! '

when there was holiday, i would like to say ' I WAS VERY BORING!!!!!! '

hehe... this one is i create in the holiday... because i'm really bored lar.... i hate holiday! ( if didnt go anywhere and just stay at home ) ... haiz....

this friday, i gonna go to my old school, SRJK(C)Khe Beng in klang.... cause there was the 2007 year standard 6 student graduation ceremony... and that was madam Tee call all of the 2006 year standard 6 student back to school... haha... miss my old school!!! XD

well, the time passing really fast.... next year i gonna form 2... lolzz.... and this year form 5 student gonna leave our school! miss all of them.... now i love to listening song.... maybe be effect by Alisa.... lolzz... haha.........

now i start playing INITIAL-D games.... that was FUN and AMAZING!!!!! lolzz... very hope can play the whole day in summit or others place.... =P lolzz... i indulge in the game liao..... =.=" haha....

now i always relax with song when nitez..... that is what way i relax... i always relax about 12am to 1am... relaxing...... hehe..... actually i got two ways to forget about all thing in my mind..... that was song and INITIAL-D! hehe....... when doing that , anything i also forgot liao............

forgot... maybe that was a great way....... if i can really forgot anything .. that was really nice.... all inside my life is also full of sad and hurt...... if can forgot that all sad and hurt forever..... that really nice.. haha........................................

Zui Ai Hai Shi Ni

holiday lo.... but that not seen a happy thing to me.... i hate holiday... zzz..

well... a song that very nice for me... 'Zui Ai Hai Shi Ni' by Tang Yu Zhe... that one very nice... haha.....

down there are the song translation..

Translation

How do we understand the unspoken words
I wanted so much to rewind the image
The familiar expression you left in my heart
Every warm and pure white memories surpassed our distance

In the crowd, no one knew
My lips would be in a smile just thinking of you
Don't say sorry and don't ask the reason
Let this world keeps going, don't forget the past

You are still the one I love the most, it's my decision
Like the opposite stars in the universe attracted to each other
They will slowly get closer, I still have to love you
Time will prove the courage of my love for you
It's when holding your hand I'll know what forever is

This time I give up everything
Just to meet you again
You are still the one I love the most, it's my decision
Like the opposite stars in the universe attracted to each other
They will slowly get closer, I still have to love you
Time will prove the courage of my love for you
It's when holding your hand I know what forever is

Never letting go

The sky very dark.....

today the sky very dark.... my heart too.........

i just think i atleast still got the brain creative before.... but now i was wrong..... i'm really useless...... even just wanna angre a people and hit him also cannot.... my whole life is very bad.... my life, my love, sport, electrical games.... all... ALL... no one i do it has work..... whatever is just my body and my heart... easyly to hurt it........ then why i in this world?! i being bully by people.. i can't do anything....... they just keep doing... then i just keep escape... i can't do anything..... even i just hit them back... they wont get hurt any... but i get the all!

what is the meaning i live in this world..... no friends ... no family.... even just a buddy i also didn't have........ why i could in this world..... is it die better? or i should keep escape? my heart very confusing..... i don't know what i should do.................. my world become more dark.... until i also can't see myself........

This holiday more fun and tired........... how come i say like that? check this out!

lol.... last time i tought this holiday will like normal one... one word- BORED! but now i wrong... more fun .. and also tired..

Everyday i will go to my father factory there to help to work... my father a manager of the factory... now he work at KL , but after this project done, he will be change to Banting there... at that time, i will always go there with my father. Because there near the beach! hehe... you know something? i very like the beach... cause it bring me a great and romance feel.... that was nice~

After work so many days at Hari Raya , then thursday i have a rest! WOW! rest! i like it now! haha.... i think i will go to have many of fun tomorrow.. work so many days ready... now is the time to FUN! i plan will go to play the snooker first.. then have tea with jere them.. after that, play futsal... then ciber cafe..... i don't know it will work or not? just a simple plan first...

Walao... today after work have tuition! WHAT THE HELL! lolz... try guess what will happen at tuition... i sleeping ! =P ..too tired mah... what else i can do wor.... sleep lor...... today is the second day of Form 2... nice feel.... but when the science paper coming...zzzz... my head like wanna ZABOOOOOOOM! .. but whatever lar... i will try my best to read it! DON'T WORRY! BE HAPPY! =P

Tomorrow first go to breakfast with father, then.....Wait ar .. i go plan my time table first. Don't go anywhere, i will be right back! wait me!

The most best friendz i meet - Jason

lolz... this jason....zzz...

why he so~ ... 'bilibala' .. hehe.. ya.. it seen like so angre like wanna scold me when we chating... lolz... ya ya.. i know he wanna me good... but that like...zzzz... let me so .. confusing? lol.. dont know lar... but atleast he the 1st one who really care me.. ya.. i can feel it... whoever care of me.. i will very remember them.. but why the most i wanna to remember it... didnt care me... i know.. it is me didnt do something ... but.. what else i really can do? i meanz , what can i do izzit like .... i know many lar.. but.. like what jason say one.. ' Think the positive all the time ' .. i'm not always think at the negetve, but that all thing make me think like that... i also dont very like to think positive it........

haiz...i know i miss her now is useless only.. but i really miss her... i really like to talk to her.. but .. i can't!

nice day~

haha... today morning go to mamak restaurant beside the KFC there eat breakfast with my father and my brother... hehe... always go there one... the roti pisang damn nice.. add one more teh tarik.. walao... best~~

afterthat, return back to home... what can do? sleep. then wake up at 12pm... go on the com... play cs-cz... hehe... then i recieve a sms... that was julian.. he call me go to that chinese restaurant have some nice drink~ i wanna go liao... but my mother call me and tell me that she coming back... cause i haven eat... waiting my mother lor... what can i do le.... after eat ..WALAO! is 1.30pm liao... my full body got many many many energy! sure lar.. after eat got that chemical mah..zzz... then i go there...

after that... we ( that's meanz me, jun yen, alwin, julian, jere, william, ah meng, prawin ) go to ciber cafe near the flat one...wah.. that weather damn cool you know? really like Genting Highland... cause got the rain and that was very cool and big wind.... << href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEis9MjQXqbhtI0zZICtcZSy3RcdzZFtqZETPF6TxY2_OJqQQBqcSB5PfkIyTbAIbqRh_Q0cZayXE_nUO3lAORE7p8ilipK0y1VTgehF1GfX6nv429ZQjgNMEcZesiGOJvTGRrlVFFREWgA/s1600-h/101020072250.jpg">

after we play that is 5pm ready... they all go to play futsal but i didn't go cause got tuition what... then prepaid the thing to tuition lo...

today is the last day of Form 1 in my tuition.. next tuesday when i go to tuition is go to learning the Form 2 thing liao.. ^.^ hehe...

haiz...

i now cant control myself... how come i say le? i always have the remembrane that me and she together.... i really don't know why... really one lar, i didn't wanna think that.. but in my mind.. always come out the all remembrance... i really miss her... but i don't wan to see her... everytime i meet her... the heart is getting hurt....

that all remembrance in m mind was very nice.... but now all gone ready... is not happen again............. :'-(

hurt....

:-l

hurt.....

i really hurt....... i saw one people one people online... just her didn't online..... when everytime te people online... my heart getting more hurt.... i know... i know she very hard to do...... but.. what that she do it... really hurt me..

:'- l

lolz... haiz.... zzz...

haiz.... tomoro will be my the first biggest worry thing in my life......

yesterday i wrap the wraping paper with a teddy bear.... the teddy bear is very soft one... hehe..... nice~ i like it..... i use my teacher teach me that the method... ya, that's was best of the thing if wrap like that... but that's hard to me to do it.... i do it until 4am... zzz... then i change the method.. ya.. no prefect ready... but also can lar... finally i finish it at 5.30am..... but still haven done yet.. still owe a card... i buy ready but haven write anything... don't know write what.....

today morning, we ( me and my friendz ) plan ready 3pm go to play snooker... i sleep until 1.30pm then wake up.... cause last night i do until so late... so i need sleep more .... andthen when i wake up is 3.30pm ready.... zzz... i go my friendz shop there..but my bike got some problem cause yesterday when i go to cycle i be hurt by the bike gear.... that gear broke ready.... zzz... so, got some hard to go there..... when i reach there, he still at there waiting me =P... hehe...

wow... i be professional after the first time i play it.... afterthat, we return back to our home....... i just reach my home, then have a sms send to me..... jere them call me come to futsal court there playing futsal.... lolz.... too tired ready lar... so i didn't go.... hehe....

haiz... don't know tomorro what will happen... however,night ready.... wanna sleep liao.. BYE~

WoW~

huh... finally change a new place ^^... this post will be the first post i send in this blog... haha.... well, i'M OKayz!