Chinese New Year...

Chinese New year coming soon.... i know i should be very happy to celebrate this holiday... but i didnt feel that.... i feel bad... i'm always alone... lonelay was bad..... i very hate myself! what was my problem actually?! why i couldnt feel happy all the time! i hate myself! why i always be hurt.... why.........

i'm not a perfect lover... i really losting............... :''!