my draw, my feel

i draw these at school... that all are my draw.... same as my feel............



a heart already been cold up................ a heart just like the sky..............



i starting to been dark... dark until i already dont know who i am...... what i am doing........ i starting lost myself......



a heart that be hurt many and many.... now.. it rather to lock itself up than keep searching the another part inside the world............. it really hurt..... it feel very sad every day and every time......... nobody will know it feels.... no one.... ='(

but now before i had lock up my heart... i wanna try again... the last chance................ tonight..... i will go to ask her...

if she accept me.. i will stay at here.... and let her to cure me .... ='j

a nice day..... =)

today is Rachel and Kok Tong birthday!!! haha... they all plan to go piramid there celebrate it....

actually they all just wanna go ice skatting only lar... -_-ll my skatting skill still very bad... in fact i dont wan to go skat de.... but they all at they, dont you wan me alone at outside meh.... =.="

then i try to go skatting lor.... but still okay lar.. -.-" i still need a master to help me.... cant to deny that Rachel she a professional skat girl.. haha... she like to help me.. and we hold together and skat... that was really romance... =.="" i feel very nice when holding his hand... you wont believe.. this was my first holding a girl hand.. =.=" unconsciously, i learn how to skat already... lol...

after i skat for 3 hours... then i feel tired and find pei mun them to watch a movie... the movie title is : code name , the cleaner ... the movie was a action movie but it very funny.. haha..

afterthat, we all go to the .. game place? lol.. a place that play game de... =.=" then we all play together.. in initial-D i still can win Issac.. haha.. not bad.. we all also injured after playing... cause too enjoy! XP

that was late already... then we back to home.... i was very tired..... =.=" today really enjoy for me.... hehe... =P

izzit she there are waiting for me?

somebody say there was many chance waiting you in your life.... it need you to strive for it... sometime she was online in msn.. it's just same like a chance... she now at there... and i dont know when she will leave... maybe she at there she are not waiting me but the others.... or maybe that was me oversensitive...

maybe alisa she are right... i should just say out my feel to her.... whatever is the result.. but atleast i think i will feel more better than now..... =( it maybe hard to believe... she are the only one i need......

actually... say the real, i'm feel really sad and hard..... i just keep pretending i'm alright... but i know i can keep pretend... until she tell me she are loving me.... probably the day that i waiting will be very long or just tomorrow.... but i can prop up until that day..... i hope....

:( can anyone tell me what should i do? T.T

i dont know what i should do for... i dont know she now are loving me or not... and somemore now i'm not gonna to hope for any love.... i become form 2 soon... form 2 are very hard and many thing need me to study for...

but when i gonna to give up and rest for the love.. she looks like still love me... it make me dont know what to do.... and.. i think love and study can do very well at the same time right?.... somemore.... if she really love me.. i really dont hope to miss this love... cause i'm still very love her............. T.T

maybe the god is very like to play me.... when i hope to study.. the love coming... when i wish for the love... it leave me already.... i'm tired now... i dont wan play anymore...... really....

maybe dreamz would be come thurth..

someone know my blog already... and maybe my christmas dreamz will be come thurth.... maybe only... but i hope so......

...christmas dreamz... maybe it just a dreamz.. in real world that wont be happen... somemore i feel that she more loving the others but not me... maybe a dreamz really cant happen anyways at the real world... :( but however i will keep the hope.... and wait for her.........

now, she know my blog ready... so... if she can come at the party... i will be very happy... =)

Tuition.... Dreamz.....

haiz... just left one more year... then i will leave my tuition... reason why? no reason.... i just wanna leave... say the thurth one... when i start go into the tuition and learn all the thing... it really work to help me in studies, life, many many..... but now i had learn all... and it was nothing more helping me... i need a more knowledge place to let me learn more about this world....

well, sometimes i really wish to leave now... cause sometime my friends they all are really annoying and they didnt study anyway in class... just make laugh and noise.... sometime that was nice for relaxing ... but sometime it's not and very annoying for all student.... somemore i saw teacher was very headache for it.... sometime i wish for peace in tuition.... =.="

i hope i have a nicely experience in tuition before i leave.... :)

christmas was coming... and this year i was celebrate christmas lonely... if really can, i hope i can celebrate with her.... i hope there was a party and i invite her go there ... and we can dance together or.. something else lor... hehe... but i know she must call her friends go with her together if she have go there....... dreamz not come true!! >.<

dreamz girl... i hope the dream can really come thurth ...

'dream come thurth' this word i always heard from people... but many of people also say its was not true and was opposite meaning of the dream... but i hope it was not true.....

the sweet sweet dreamz story is like that de...

when the dreamz start.. i was at the down tuition there... cause me and she, dreamz girl always wait our teacher to fetch we back at there... then she was coming to me.. and take me to away from the tuition classmate them... she didnt say anything but me start talking with her... i asking her did she have love me? cause the girl in the true world is a girl that i love her from standard 4... and we have be couple in this year before... but that 'couple' is no anyone know.. cause we dont wan to let anyone know it... but i know that she tell her good friendz ready... i also didnt say to my best friend... =.=" but we was break after that.... that was my problem! i very hate myself why i would break with her! she was nice and perfect!!!! that is i was thinking she just lie to me and she didnt love me before.. i was stupid for doing that and thinking that stupid thing!!!!! after that.. i know that i was wrong.. and i regret to do that... i didnt say to her... i dont know why... but now was too late to be... and .. i still loving her...

continue to the story... then she was nod her head... i was very happy and we was talk and talk many thing.... but what we talk i was forget ready.. but i remember that all was sweet.. i remember something was happen after that.. but i forgot !!! >.<"

then i was get up from that... maybe the story was end... i dont know why i was wake up... my phone alarm also cant get me up... but why i was wake up myself? but what was i know at that time that i was LATE!!!!! i promise to attend with my best friend go to sunway piramid play.... haiz... go there at 8am... cause need to help him sister open the shop.. he sister working at there... then we play and play the initial-D .. THAT WAS AMAZING!!! i up my lvl!! haha... i play at there for 12hours! lolz.. so tired...

back to home!! home sweet home~ tomorrow gonna go to NTV7 studio .. hehe.. my tuition annual trip/party!! wow.. haha.. i was a spectators of a show... the show name 'shout out! its show time!' every thursday 10.45pm... me was the spectators in show nomber 10 and 11 show out... tomorrow can see how was them film a show... haha... hope tonight can dreamz my dream girl too!! ^^"