my class picture... LOLX

lolxx... my lastest class picture... XP

doomsday??? o.0" UFO?? o.0"

hmm .. doomsday? 2012... again... i gonna talk about it again.. lolz... this is serious problem... we are facing a problem now before that 'doomsday' .. that is.. ozen layer is thickness'ing!! call as greenhouse effect.. that effect we already hear it everywhere like our text book.. televisyen.. anywhere... but, no one figure how serious is that! everyone just say: cheh. greenhouse effect only ma.. lame lar.. everyday say that. that layer thick'ing very slow lar... relax lar... ' LOLX , what the hell those people are talking?!

okay.. i saying some example.. its not joking.. my friend parents .. such as my transport people lar... he say his relative at Australia there.. now there is snowing... hmm.. hear like normal right? Australia always snowing , isnt it? but.. remember.. now is April .. so.. should be summer right?!!! how come there is snowing?!!! what?! snowing in summer?!!!! lolxx.. impossible man... i not sure lar.. just hear it... and also Singapore and Malaysia... everywhere.. getting very cool and hot.. we just like live in desert.. morning hot like hell.. night cool until die... if its before.. we still can do manything to repair it.. but now its too late for us to do any anything... what we can do is.. sit and waiting for dead.. that's all...

okay.. now we talk about another topic.. that is.. UFO.. hmm.. u guys know about NASA right? is is in American... something is for space lar...when American arrive moon.. the people who on the moons can see many UFO going around... you also can watch it in youtube... its not UFO.. maybe its some star? or.. maybe just a big stone? but they all will move and some slowly some very fast... i saw in youtube already lar.. and i dont think that is a jok...

did you know about that, American there always hear have what secret thing for Alien.. UFO.. anything lar... but when the guys who work in there have didnt work anymore.. 'they' tell us about that secret .. you all can check in youtube.. youtube have many.. and its true.. hmm.. i just watch it and i tell you all now lar... its talking about Alien.. starting before until now, total have 4 type/alien come to earth .. first is like us lar means normal human... and another is like what did you imaging .. weird weird face.. something like it...

okay.. andthen, 'he' say when 2012 years, Alien will come to earth... and talking straight to us.. if 'that' Alien's is good one.. maybe he can tell us about high technology.. but if 'that' Alien's is bad... we gonna dead... or do work for them... hm.. 2012? maybe we all already dead cause of thickness of ozen layer before 'they' come... i wonder how they will know Alien's will come in 2012? did it write in 'their' ship(UFO)?

i dont know and i just telling lar... its up to you to believe or just ignore and keep waiting dead...

just forget it...

i shift tuition to Tuition Excel Bestari there last week.... i always got feel to that old tuition... but until today... i just heard people say i leave that tuition because that tuition teacher doesn't like me and i also hate that tuition teacher... lolx.. i was very angre about that... afterthat, i heard that was my best friendz ever tell everyone de... i was very disappointed... i cant even image how was it happen...

in fact, i leave my old tuition got some reason... but that all cant tell you all lar... lolz.. i know Alisa will say again i'm for ' kao lui ' lolxxx..... -_-" but i say the real at here, I'M NOT!!!! lolzz... anywayz... from this minute, i wont feel any for this kind of people and tuition... i promise. and.. i finally know what it is meanz ' best friend ' .

well, long time i didnt write my bloggy dee.... lols.. cause i'm quite busy... i now have been a Pengawas Pencubaan in school... and i'm learning guitar anywayz.... T.T:

hmm... well, see you next time! =)

Last day...

today is the last day i at the tuition....i hope that everything will be fine... nobody know i will leave tuition today except wei yin and teacher elaine only... but very unlucky, when wednesday i talking with teacher elaine, teacher fione was there.... and she know everything... about teacher elaine wedding party, i hope to go there... but i cant.. i didnt have the invite card for that....

when after tuition, i give something to hui wen... but she still dont wan to take it.... but why.. why even is the last minute we meet.... she still reject me... i have no more chance to see her again... why.......

she was happy... i know... i'm really sure about that.... because when i enter the tuition until now i was very annoying... but now finally i was leave.... i'm not simple say... but i saw she was very happy...... and teacher, too....

if i'm really a bad thing in that tuition... i will be happy to leave it.... however...

good bye, my friends.

she.unhappy

i'm really dont know actually i'm so scary for hui wen... if i leave her away did she will be more happy than now? or maybe i just die away from her and she will happy ever... i'm seriously... i feel so sad.... i dont know i'm keep making she live inside a scary and sad world all the day... i dont know what else i can do anymore for her..... i'm doing nothing for her.. no, i'm not doing nothing but i keep making her sad... so.. i will leave away from her... next week will be the last week i and she meet... last.......

Perfect match?

Perfect match?

i'm really dont know what i wan actually... should i ask her or just wait.. but, what i'm waiting for? waiting her? waiting me? i dont know me and she are the perfect match or not.. i just dont wan to destroy our friendship .. but i know i cant missing her anyway...

now there was two way i could choose to go.... one, ask her and keep loving her.... two, give up and just dont care about her..

i know this is my future and that's all my choice.... anyway... i still need sometime to think about it.... if can, please give me some comment... i now really dont know what should i suppose to do....

Hui Wen...

Love? haiz...

around this month she already start didnt reply my sms dy... i feel so lonely... haiz.. i dont know why i just like to chat with her, talk with her and tell everything to her... is that i love her? or .. i was wrong? but something i can make sure that is.. i know i had really love her... before that i still dont know actually i love her or not.. cause everytime when i didnt saw her i will very miss her... but when i can saw her i didnt feel anything... lolx... i cant make sure am i really love her or maybe i'm wrong...

but around this week i feel very lonely... is not like the normal alone.. but .. erm.. i cant write out the feel... just feel like very lonely... i very miss her... and she keep didnt reply my sms dy , i feel very sad.. i thinking the past that she have sms me... got one time she say she feel me like very stressful and got anything dont keep inside the heart.. just say out.... is that she wan me to say 'something' to her? i dont know....

i had no more time left to see her... cause i gonna shift tuition... and maybe school too... =.=" i dont know i had chance to see her again or not.... i now dont know what should i do ... she are a nice girl... a very nice people... what should i do actually?! >.<" have a girl sms to tell me before... the girl say that is very hard to love me.. and the girl say she was tired.. and that time i was thinking that if Hui Wen really love me.. and did she feel very hard and tired? i know i'm a very stupid guy in the love world...

did i should just tell her everything ? with sms? or with myself? if she didnt meanz anything? then what should i do? i dont know... T.T i really hope i can know what she was thinking and i hope she got see my blog and give some tips to me..... T.T

I WAN KILL TENG WEI !!!!

ARH!!!! I WAN KILL TENG WEI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<"

zzzz.... today my house making a BBQ party.. and Teng Wei, Jun Yen, Marcus, Alan, Carmen, Ee Ling... and my sister friends all come... -.-"

after i back from tuition, i play cards with them... with money* i play and play.. keep losing... after that i say an idea to play 'pairs' .. that's out of my imaging! i win very very much money!! afterthat, i facing a very hard round... the Teng Wei looks like scaring me.. and i not sure i wan follow or not... finally, i choose follow... and then we keep putting the money... RM10 , RM10, RM10... finally i have no more RM10... and we open the card ... WHAT THE HELL, I LOSE!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Walao.. my heart was very pain and pain... but my face keep smile... -_-"

haiz... afterthat i keep playing.. and i not like so force like before... but i still win the money... haiz.... after i play and play... then finally i lose RM70 ++ ... LOLX.. i can play arcade many times already!!!! >.<" if i didnt follow Teng Wei before , i could win RM110++ and not lose RM70++ !!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz...

starting....

Teng Wei too many money until need use the mouth to take the money... lolx

playing...

guess who is counting these money? Teng Wei!!!!! >.<"

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lazy... =.="

i have many many many many many many thing to say that happen on Chinese New Year!!!! that is tooooo many things to say!! really too many!!!! wow.... sooo many thing i wanna say about!!!!!!!!!! xD

but i lazy to write, byebye.

thx ma diu (matthew) ! xD

today all the day feel very sienz... then find hui wen to chat.. cause my mind full of her.. xP

..about the key... my heart key.. i have think many many thing today as i very bored laying at sofa.... suddenly i think many choice that i can give the key to them.. but at last i just have 2 nice choice... 1 is the girl that i very love her... and another one is .. have a little bit feel to her, but she have anything like the dreamgirl i wish to.... lolx... Valentine Day coming soon... i should give the key to who?!! >.<"

at afternoon, i open my msn... i just open my msn.. and do nothing else.... lolx.. after 5minute i keep looking at my msn.. feel bored... =.=" zz.. then i go write a post to my blog... but i didnt have any feel.. -.-" cant write anything... afterthat, i go take a look in teng wei blog.... cause he blog address in my internet explorer favourite there.. my brother save de... -_-" the blog was pretty nice... i love that! xD

after i look his post.. i get something... i saw that he have a very nice life and experience .. i hope i can be like him... he make me think back everything... and many feels... we all have not much time left... 11.11 a.m. 21th December 2012... the end of our life.....

i dont wish that my life will be end with sad... but i wan my life can let me proud of myself.... thx matthew... i promise you, and also my friends... dont worry about me! i will be great everytime! i promise!

thx for meeting you all, my friends.... i proud of you all!

TAKE EACH DAY, ONE AT A TIME

One day at a time-time is enough.

do not look back

and grieve over the past,

for it is gone.

Do not be troubled

about the future,

for it has yet to come.

Live in the present,

and make it so beautiful

that it will be worth

remembering.

Chinese New Year...

Chinese New year coming soon.... i know i should be very happy to celebrate this holiday... but i didnt feel that.... i feel bad... i'm always alone... lonelay was bad..... i very hate myself! what was my problem actually?! why i couldnt feel happy all the time! i hate myself! why i always be hurt.... why.........

i'm not a perfect lover... i really losting............... :''!

my world just left me only....

nobody care my anymore ... now when they all seeing and looking at me.. they just pretend that dont know me and keep walking over me... the whole school like a dark world now... and i feel just me in the school.. no others... or maybe is , just they all but no me in the school....

i'm really losting my mind and my way... i dont know where could i go...

i losting in the darkness....

2012 the world will be end?

4 years later... the world maybe will be end.... i read a science book last week... the book have a chapter say about an old old history 'stone board' that found in 'malaya' at somewhere... the 'stone board' has write down many many digital number.. the scientist get the 3,740 number after change the digital number.. and the scientist say that the 'solar cell/sun cell' (i dont know what the hell is that) will be change to opposite way every 3,740 years.. and last time the sun cell change the way until now, that is 2012 and about February... if the all animals and plants cant be suitable for that, the all animals and plants will be dead.. same as doomsday...

actually i not very believe in that... but if it is the real, i think i will done all my wish like... buy the areoplane toy, helicopter , play pool all the day... =.=" and the most important... i hope she will accept me even until the last minute...

so.. what will you do if that is the real?

its time to back....

now its the time to back already.... i stay out of my world already so long... and i keep give the others people trouble only.. i'm annoying... just make people hate me only... feel bad.....

welcome back, mok! :(

did i really suppose to give her up? =(

my heart is getting more hurt inside the heart.. did i really suppose to give her up? i really dont know... when i heard that the other say she have boyfriend already.. i feel very strange and sad... i dont know how to do.... if she really have the boy.. did i suppose to give her up and let her be with some one that she really love to be...... i really hope to give her the key.... =(

Silence – Jay Chow

I’m only left with a piano to accompany me all the day
Sleeping on a grand piano
Silently worning out
I think you’ve shown it’s perfectly clear
I understand and I know that you’ve willing to
You said that you will be sad
But I don’t believe it
Accompanying me & holding my hand like before
I hope that he really love you more than I do
So I will force myself to leave you

You want me to say it, it’s hard for me
I don’t even want us to separate
Why do I still replace my sadness with a smile
I really don’t have that talent
Being with you & then accept him
You don’t have to worry too much
I can manage on my own

You’ve gone so far away
And I will slowly walk away
Why do I still hold you when I should be leaving
I really don’t have that skill
To remain silent so soon
I will lean how to give you up
It’s because I still love you so much

sky soo.. dark...

today the sky suddenly very dark... because i'm singing!!!! XP

key of the locked box...

A key of my heart boxes.... i will keep it... i will give the key to my another part to unlock back my heart box when i found her.......

life just made simple! ;-/

many many thing happen in last year and this week..... that make me very confuising and i cant think anything very well.....

actually the life could be very simple and easy.... all just see how you're think about this.... hard and easy... i will choose hard everytime... many people say i'm crazy... whatever.. i didnt put in heart... well... this time.. i will choose easy... a new way will make my life a new style... that's what i'm thinking now....

you too?

result

at last... lock up already....... she didnt reject me anywayz... but i didnt ask her.... i'm not scare ... but i know the people who really can make she happy that not me.... maybe she are thinking like that.... but i really dont know what she are thinking about.... if she have saw my blog... i hope u, hui wen... will tell me what you are thinking about.......... i love you... i am a stupid guy... please forgive me for all of what i'm doing bad to you... there all are not true... but i love you ... that was the true...........

a present... she say she like it before... i buy the present already a week already.... but now still at my here.... i'm really useless.... actually i wanna to give her tonight... but .. lolzz....

and in tonight i get something.... that are... maybe the god not playing you... but there was many impossible thing in this world.... what you are thinking.. in the real world it have no idea to work at 100%....

my draw, my feel

i draw these at school... that all are my draw.... same as my feel............



a heart already been cold up................ a heart just like the sky..............



i starting to been dark... dark until i already dont know who i am...... what i am doing........ i starting lost myself......



a heart that be hurt many and many.... now.. it rather to lock itself up than keep searching the another part inside the world............. it really hurt..... it feel very sad every day and every time......... nobody will know it feels.... no one.... ='(

but now before i had lock up my heart... i wanna try again... the last chance................ tonight..... i will go to ask her...

if she accept me.. i will stay at here.... and let her to cure me .... ='j